feel

Have you ever felt neglected, felt unloved, felt like you didn't matter? When you make a small request to a certain someone special, and yet you'd been turned down and made fun of with impractical excuses and ways to get you off their backs. When you want to do this thing that you deem as really speecial and you want to share it with that someone special and yet get turned down right in your face. When you have different viewpoints with a someone special and you try to make things work yet it seem to be wasted efforts. When you try to measure up to someone's expectations and wishes for the best of everything for the other, but yet what you're doing just seem dumb and childish and impractical. When you just needed company, when you're feeling all alone, when you feel stupid and foolish, all you needed was someone to be there, yet the one you want the most denied you of it, and instead, make you feel dumber, more foolish, and like a joke. When things gets so hard, when emotions get the better of you, yet you're treated like a crybaby, being crazy and forever coming up with nonsense and bullshit that the other had said to be tired of. When you want to just do something special, to just make the other an exclusive, yet you're said to be sticky, to not be able to be shake off. Have you ever felt this way? I did.