I remember back in my teenage years, about 10 years ago, I kept a physical diary and I'd write in it everyday, religiously, about random things in my life which was then deemed as important to me. And few years ago, while cleaning the room, I chanced upon these diaries and I sure had a good laugh. The so called problems I had back then was in fact not fit to be a problem at all. And the way I wrote, the handwriting, the language etc, were all what we thought was cool at that time. And from time to time I hear myself laughing out loud and saying "oh my god I can't believe I said/did that." Reading something closer, perhaps 1 year ago, things I wrote on dayre, had the same effect. Bringing back memories, good or bad, bitter or sweet. But it's these things that shaped me, that made me who I am as a person today. And I'm glad I did that, jotting down my thoughts, and allowing the future me get in touch with my past with the style/words I used, it connects me, and reminds me of who I was, who I should become.
Just yesterday I was looking back in time with a friend. Back to 5 years ago, when we were still back in the Poly days. So many things changed. The infrastructure around us, the people around us, our relationships, the way we look/behave and even mentality. And I'm sure in the future, maybe 5 years down the road, regardless whatever I'm doing, however I've become, it'd always be nice to read a message from the current me. To remind myself of what the 23 year old Eileen has in mind for the future Eileen. The hopes, the ambition, to keep myself in check and my life in line. And I wish by then, whatever I've written in this letter will be realised, and I can smile to myself and exclaim proudly "all checked!"
To future x
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