flashbacks.

loft.
it's like a chalet to many,
a place to hang out and play, to have fun,
and its like a second home to many of the society/sac ppl.
we practically spent half of school lives there,
eating, planning, playing, doing nonsense.
so much memories there,
but come to think of it,
it's just another half of the year at most for us to spend time with the seniors in ngee ann already.
i dont know how i'll feel,
but i'm certain i'll miss them, all.i'm already starting to miss Alex, who wasn't there with us since what seems like forever :(
so many things happened between us throughout
quarrels, fallouts, unhappiness etc but we all manged to get through them, and put all these differences aside.
will we still all stay in touch?
will we all still be like how we are?
i'm happy, very happy.
this pioneer camp, though not really very successful, it brought us, or maybe me,
back to how i was with them all.
but sometimes i wished i wasn't so close either.

it's not me now.
i hate standing at the door waiting like an idiot,
playing scenarios in my head that i know wouldn't happen.
standing there letting flaskbacks haunt me, scary much you know

i'm learning to hate you,
to do what i said i would :)