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Wednesday, June 27, 2012

happy 15th, my baby ♥

 ♥ HAPPY 15TH MONTH TO J AND I!  

Hi my dear boyfriend. You're in reservist now, and the time we get to talk on the phone had massively decreased, and i'm really sad but we have no choice. Just want to say happy 15th month and i'm really happy we're at our 15th month already YAY i'm so glad we pulled through all the mindless fights, quarrels and arguments(though they all mean roughly the same thing) even though they are always mostly revolving around the same things over and over again. i'm glad you chose to put up with all my nonsense, my mood swings and temper when i was still a very horrible person. i'm glad you chose to stay on even when times got really hard between us and the only options we seem to have was to give it all up. i'm thankful that you never saw giving us up as on option to consider and instead, you chose to fight for us. thank you for being so understanding towards me throughout these whole 15 months and the few months before we got together. thank you for believing in me, that i'll be a better person, that i'm not as bad as i always think i am. so many things changed in my life when i met you, and indefinitely it did for you too. but i'm really happy that it was all for the better, be it good times or bad. so proud of us to pull through for so long despite some shortcomings that we couldn't stand of each other. but that too, we managed to see pass it. so congratulations my dearest boy, we're proceeding to our next milestone! hehe. okay la i admit i'm such a crybaby i really wanted you to be with me because it feels so unsafe. but jiayou okay we can get through this whole reservist thing together though i can't hide inside your duffel bag or hide in the trees like we planned. i know by the time you see this it'll be like sunday, which is freaking 5 days later, but still, you have to read all these by hook or by crook by latest sunday see you on sunday!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA    


Friday, June 01, 2012

Mundane

Life has been so mundane, excluding the fact that J and I had been pretty well lately, no fights or whatever, so yay ^^ anything else, MEH. FYP has been rough, like really really rough, and it's totally not fun, especially when you need to do it all alone, with a partner not really treating it seriously. KILL ME PLEASE


So, I really goddamn intend to graduate this fucking semester, like seriously. So i need to pull my socks all the way up to my head I don't give a damn. Supz has been especially nice ever since the last review, trying ways and means to keep us still floating, and not dying. But the main thing is, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE SHIT ARE WE DOING mmmm. Another reason to be dead, but no. Not gonna succumb to NP and give them another semester of the elevated school fees. I always tell J that I'm very free, but actually I'm not. It seems like I have alot to finish, but everytime i just choose to nua. And when i can nua, i start doing things. Ugh wth is wrong with me. Anw, I saw this and I think it totally suits me. HAHA if i was a superhero, I'd be doing this instead (Y) 


Except the fact that I will never have a Robert Pattinson poster in my room. Uh, damn weird. Been spending time doing pyssla bead designs and dreamcatchers for the fund raising, I'm neglecting my own funds haha. MY INCOME IS TOTALLY DEPLETING I NEED MONEY. Exams are just next week, and yet, I'm unprepared. Time to chiongz? Just needa get out of this fucking (although good but no more meaning ) school. CIAOS    

ps. this is what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life :B